Not a day goes by that I don't think about the moment me and JT were told that she didn't make it. Not a day goes by that I don't think about something that she did or said. I am missing her so bad right now. As I was leaving work today I noticed that I waved at the security guard exactly the same way she would wave at him. The holidays are right around the corner... what do I do? I don't want to celebrate without her. My heart is breaking!!! How do I stay the strong one, how did she stay the strong one? I feel so lost. She is not in pain anymore, how can I be so selfish to want her to be here with me? No one to comfort me just because I need to be comforted. No one to love me just because I am me. No one to yell at me because I am in trouble. I don't want momma to be gone, I want to be selfish and pick up the phone and call her just to hear her say she loves me. Why did God need to take my mom? Why did he call her home so soon? Why must there be so much pain with losing her?
I want my momma!!!!!!!
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Bo Lee's Baby Shower
Bo had her baby shower today. It was great seeing her so happy. She received a lot of stuff from her loving family. She had it at Ryan's steakhouse, it is a buffet style restaurant. I did great! We were there for 2 hours and I had 1 small plate of food and a couple bites of a cupcake. I was so busy enjoying myself with my family I didn't even think about eating.
I love my family!
I love my family!
Sunday, November 7, 2010
2 Months Post Op
I am 2 months post op!
Weight
July 29th - 248.8
Sept 7th - 229
Oct 7th - 212.8
Nov 7th - 204.8
Inches
Neck -2
Chest -5
Waist -6
Hips -6
Arms 0
Legs -4
I am still learning what I can and cannot eat. Somethings put the weight back on and some do not. I haven't been following the doctor's plan exactly. However, I do have these 4oz cups that I use to measure out my food for work. I can eat just about anything, doesn't mean I should, just means I can. I still struggle to get in all of my water. I mix things up by drinking water or powerade zero. I can drink more at work but once I get home it seems to slow down. I haven't been exercising at all. My excuse, I am too mentally tired to do it after work and on the weekends I just want to relax. I know that I need to exercise to lose more weight, to keep my body fit, but my laziness keeps me from doing it. The boys try to get me to go with them and I refuse everytime. I am happy with the weightloss and with the restriction the sleeve gives me. I would never be able to do this on my own. Things will only get better from here.
Weight
July 29th - 248.8
Sept 7th - 229
Oct 7th - 212.8
Nov 7th - 204.8
Inches
Neck -2
Chest -5
Waist -6
Hips -6
Arms 0
Legs -4
I am still learning what I can and cannot eat. Somethings put the weight back on and some do not. I haven't been following the doctor's plan exactly. However, I do have these 4oz cups that I use to measure out my food for work. I can eat just about anything, doesn't mean I should, just means I can. I still struggle to get in all of my water. I mix things up by drinking water or powerade zero. I can drink more at work but once I get home it seems to slow down. I haven't been exercising at all. My excuse, I am too mentally tired to do it after work and on the weekends I just want to relax. I know that I need to exercise to lose more weight, to keep my body fit, but my laziness keeps me from doing it. The boys try to get me to go with them and I refuse everytime. I am happy with the weightloss and with the restriction the sleeve gives me. I would never be able to do this on my own. Things will only get better from here.
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