Ok so it's a new year and like most people I am starting it off trying to get of the weight I have gained. I am up to 195lbs and I am not liking it at all. I have worked out 3 days in a row and today instead of working out I went to my first OA meeting. I have to say I was full of anxiety however I am going to give it a try. I really really don't want to continue on the upward journey of weight gain. My depression is a lot better now that my doctor has finally found the drugs that work. Here are some things that have happened over the past few months.
We lost Sandra (Vicky, Tommy and Gary's mom), Larry (Aunt Bonnie's husband) and Symona (co-worker) all to cancer in what seemed like one right after another. Then we lost Debbie (Ray and Angie's mom, Matthew and Aaron's grandmother) and Ronnie (Aunt Darlene's husband) just a few days ago. I am so tired of all of the loss. I understand it is much better to be home with God than it is to be here. But it doesn't stop the pain that myself and my family are going through. It just sucks. There is nothing you can say to anyone to let them know how sorry you are for their loss. There are not enough hugs. Not enough anything. Times like these I really wish I had my mom here to talk to.
Work is going great. Family is fine. Home is fine. Nothing new to report on anything there.
After I went to the OA meeting tonight I started feeling very lonely and wanted to cry. I tried to explain it to Ben that I just don't have anyone that can relate to what I am going through. I know I have all of the support from family and friends that a person could ever ask for but they don't know what I am going through. I want to talk to others about what they are going through. I want someone to relate to my over-eating food addiction. Ok I'm not saying that I don't have anyone that listens to me because I do. But they just don't understand what I am feeling. I am being giving ideas on how to change my habits instead of someone just understanding and communicating with me about what's going on.
That's all for now!
You're right that I can't always relate to what you are going through. But I can listen and show you all the support that a woman as special to me as you deserves.
ReplyDeleteI sure that there's lots of people in the world such as veterans and people who have been through extreme tragedies that can't help but view the world as being full of people who can not relate to what they've been through or continue to go through. The sad part is how many have to make their way in the world without anyone honestly trying to listen to and support them.
I just want you to know that I will continue to try to understand and show you all the love and support I can.
You're right that I can't always relate to what you are going through. But I can listen and show you all the support that a woman as special to me as you deserves.
ReplyDeleteI sure that there's lots of people in the world such as veterans and people who have been through extreme tragedies that can't help but view the world as being full of people who can not relate to what they've been through or continue to go through. The sad part is how many have to make their way in the world without anyone honestly trying to listen to and support them.
I just want you to know that I will continue to try to understand and show you all the love and support I can.
P.S. Sorry about the double-post. It's been awhile since I've posted on Google Blogger.